Days 176 through 178...........having too much family time to pop in here.

Days 176 through 178...........having too much family time to pop in here.

3 Girls and 4 Suitcases.

 I could feel bad for failing to post blogs for the past two days but I don't. It did cross my mind to make time to write something but I was having too nice a time, with my hubbie being here, to interrupt that flow.

You will all be glad to know that his departure back to Edinburgh last night was not accompanied by my tears.
Yesterday was so different from his departur-day in October that it even surprised me. Andrew hit the nail on the head by stating that I have already done a big stint without Bill and so the fear of the unknown was not there, yesterday. Because I have done it already, I know that I can do it again. I even got to chum him to the airport, accompanied by Andrew (in case I turned into a basket-case) and the Goodbye was peaceful and relatively easy.
As soon as Bill had disappeared into customs, that wonderful big boy of mine simply took my hand and held it all the way to the door to the ttc. We then had to put our hands into gloves and pockets because it was feeling like -30 outside.
We were sooo lucky with both our transport both to and from Pearson with the buses and trains either sitting waiting for us or them arriving at our stop just after we did. It made the cold, evening trek much less of an ordeal.
So, this morning, it's back to my normal routine except that I have been given encouragement from Bill to just keep working towards my dreams and he'll keep doing the supporting-bit till I get there.
This is when I know that I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams to actually be able to believe that he means it. Admittedly, there were times this past week when I read things that weren't there, into words that were said and that felt like indicators on areas that I still need to work on with my Bach remedies. All my judgements come from within.
Twice, in the past week, I have experienced severe chest pain which came out of nowhere. Bill joked that it was just my heart being sad that he was going back to Edinburgh and I believe that there is probably a truth in that. I liken it to the Grinch, when he was rolling about in the snow, clutching his chest (that's how I felt) because his heart was growing two sizes. There is no doubt that my heart is continually being opened by this family of mine. Years ago I didn't accept any of their love because I didn't know how but now I know that they love me and I let myself feel it and I think that my heart needs to adjust to that. Either that or the beautiful white chocolate and raspberry scones we've discovered (and I have eaten daily) don't agree with me.
I have spent a week full of family chat, laughter and love. Andrew spent as much time as he could, with us and Ali had a couple of days off school plus no drama on Sunday so she was also able to spend loads of time with us.
And it was perfect.
Bill and I managed to get out and about for walks together four days in a row, despite the cold and that was wonderful.
We walked approx half hour, in the falling snow on Saturday, to a house which is for sale and then wandered back home in the snow, through the local houses, looking and plotting and planning. On Sunday we walked even further to look at four houses and survived the dropping temp on the way home. We warmed up with our first Mince and tatties since before last summer-yum.
The houses we saw, bar one, were all fab and gave us a starting point for what's available around here. We are in an expensive, popular neighbourhood so property is not cheap.
Most of the realtors were nice but we have already been bombarded by one, with his sales pitches. Bill will be sending him an email today to say 'back off buddy' and he will not be getting our business if we do decide to go ahead with finding a new family home.
We are still not sure of our next move. It could be that Bill stays in Edinburgh longer and steps up his visits, rather than him move over this year as initially planned.
Lots of discussion ahead.
The temp' has dropped again after a reprieve on Sat' which brought more snow. After this weekend, it is supposed to be up closer to zero for the following week and we will be into March so it's likely that it will begin to warm up soon-woohoo.
So, that's my very abbreviated version of the last three days. I could write more but it would make for a very long post.
Just know that the last week has been brilliant and despite Bills return to Edinburgh, I feel content and motivated this morning.
Much love and Happy Tuesday,
Lxxx