Day 199............A big long walk home.

Day 199............A big long walk home.

3 Girls and 4 Suitcases.

I was a bit off my usual game yesterday with Alison being off school and starting work at 9am. I normally do at least some of my positivity-routine, before heading up to see Ross on a Monday morning but, when I left at 9.15, I had done nothing. I did do some mindfulness both in the bus heading up to Ross' and also during the 1.5 hrs of walking that I did after my visit. Not the same as meditation but a good indicator of how I am using gratitude, affirmations and mindfulness as part of everyday life.
I decided to walk home this week, whether the bus was there or not. I had had a nice time with Ross and left him sitting chatting with other residents when I headed Southwards and home.
Because Bill and I are now seriously thinking about his move across the pond, I have upped my walking to see if the Universe will show me where we are supposed to live next.
I veared off the straight-walking down Royal York Road, into some of the housing streets but ended up at a dead-end (which often happens due to all the ravines and rail tracks that run through the area) and I had to retrace my steps, which is why the walk home took such a long time.
I was however, able to score off an area, which is just too big of a detour for Alisons commute to school and so the walk was not wasted.
The afternoon flew by as Jen and I worked on the final touch-ups to her synopsis and cover letter. Today will see us hopefully giving it a golden seal of approval and her first three chapters will be sent out to Agents tomorrow. Very exciting but scary times for my beautiful Author daughter.
Alison has a message from the director of the wee movie she was in last summer, telling her that she is now on IMDB-how fab is that? My wee Actor-daughter now has a wee profile in beside all the major actors of the world. Exciting times for her also.
If I was my mum, I would be playing all of this down because I wouldn't want folk to think I was being conceited about my childrens accomplishments. But I am not my mother and if folk want to think that about me, I can honestly say that the years of work have paid off and, in similar words to those wise ones in the movie 'Gone with the Wind',  "Frankly I don't give a damn"
I love seeing my children go after their dreams and I hope that they keep dreaming as big as they can imagine because if you can imagine it, it must be possible.
My own plan for two sessions of meditation did not materialise yesterday and I actually did none for the first time in months.
I opted for a couple of tv shows and the same amount of glasses of wine and that was okay. I could have made myself go and do meditation once everything settled down for the evening but I have pretty much removed the 'shoulds' in my life (for the moment) and the thought of snuggling up with the girls appealed more than going upstairs to meditate on my own.
This time with them will not last forever and I cherish every minute of it. My 21 days with Deepak will just be a day behind schedule
Alison had a good first full-shift at work and wasn't bothered when I was late with dinner due to Jen and I losing track of the time with the whole synopsis-thing. It's amazing how time disappears when you ate totally focussed on something.
When Jen suddenly said that it was 5.50, I made the quickest dish possible, for us-good old mac 'n' cheese.
I think that I may have rambled on enough, now.
Happy St Patricks Day Folks,
Much Love,
Lxxx